in solitude, mlb

would you believe this was me

here

a lifetime ago beside you

skimming the light

chasing the spray

would you believe I didn't know you to be different than me

sisters together

everything I knew

& everything I thought I would ever know in your shadow

would you believe I didn't choose to come to your mountain

the current carried me here

it pushed me canyon to canyon

granite spines rolling back to back

and I wonder in silence if I will find you somewhere between the trees

I wonder in silence if the man staring at me across the lodge thinks I am you

would you believe the older I grow the more we look the same

the greater the divide

the longer the loss

the lower the whispers that tell me you're gone

would you believe I am standing here

returned after keeping a 26-year promise to the baby put in my arms

I did what I said I would do

let the mountain sit in solitude until all the snowman were built

and I let you go off on your own

I let you go and you never came back

of course, you would believe

it was me who never could

"Don't push too hard on me,

I already give you more than I give anyone else."