I lean out the open car window and announce,
I let my hand ride outside the car surfing the wind.
My hold on the steering wheel fleeting and loose.
He laughs and names it savanna.
I squint and say, savanna-yellow.
You used to call it savanna-gold, he reminds me.
I shake my head.
I know when I said that... it was late September.
We were on the foothills in a field of knee high grasses, planning our lives together.
I was starving.
The front of my shirt dotted with blood from a nose bleed. I had spent the night before in the ER and had no business being out in the sun running, but I was.
The front of my shirt dotted with blood from a nose bleed. I had spent the night before in the ER and had no business being out in the sun running, but I was.
I had reached a thinnest with my body that was unbecoming.
People had started to question me about it.
People had started to question me about it.
I know, things have been rough but it's under control now, I would say.
it's all under control
I got this
I'm fine
it's all under control
I got this
I'm fine
But gold has never been the right word, I tell him.
It is not golden; we were... gold is solid but workable- soft.
This color is luminescent and consuming.
It changes like water.
And disappears like light.
You can hold onto gold, this you can't.
He pauses, then it is misty-savanna.
I laugh, yes, it is and it goes very well with misty-blue.
If I was god I wouldn't live in the sky.
I would live in the wind.
I would live in the wind.
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